Reply to Joe

Ok I don’t have a Tumblr account and so see no way of replying to Joe on there so I’ll stick my response here.

Here’s what Joe had to say:

promiscuity & principles: my take

ok i’m going to be viciously candid about this, so if you’re easily offended by judgements on lifestyles, then click away now :)

it is widely believed that within the gay community, individuals are more sexually promiscuous and having only been out for a few months, i’m learning this very quickly. however, it is not something that i’m welcoming.

today, I was speaking to my sister, who was telling me about two gay guys at work who had just started and during a conversation they discussed the promiscuity of gay men: “you have sex with them first, and then get to know them later!”, one explained.

now, trust me, i’m no prude – i’m not religious, i come from a middle class background and have had no reason but good parenting and inherited morals to feel uneasy about the thought of a sexual merrygoround.

i know i’ve got a lot of catching up to do, but going out – getting wasted – and waking up in someone else’s bed with regrets is not appealing to me. i really want to just meet a guy, get to know him and go on one or two, maybe even three dates before anything sexual happens. i can control myself, why can’t other people? just because i have a different sexuality, doesn’t mean that i shouldn’t retain traditional values of romance expected in a straight relationship? right?

i just get the feeling that any guy that i do go on a date with, won’t stick around for that second or third date, if i don’t put out on the first. which is crappy.

weirdly, right now, i’m not that bothered about the sexual aspect of being gay – just crave the concept of having someone to chill out with, cuddle up to and just ‘be there’ every now and then. please apply within. :P

what’s everyone elses thoughts on this? reblog with your POV.

x

Well I pretty much agree with Joe, and I think it’s a myth that gay men are more promiscuous than straight men or women for that matter. There are millions of promiscuous people of all varieties, you only have to go to a nightclub to see how many people are out to get a leg over. I personally don’t like that kind of thing but I understand it and see the fun of it. But for me, I couldn’t do it. I would want the relationship side of things. I’d feel hollow about it afterwards.

Sometimes I think I should have taken more chances at Uni. I realise now that women, no matter how attractive are just people. I know some  gorgeous people that if I didn’t know them I wouldn’t approach them at all to talk to, but they’re just as  normal as me. But as it was, I took few chances. I got a couple of snogs but that was about it.  I of course wouldn’t change my life now for anything. I am not ashamed that I didn’t have sex until I was 22 and that that person is now my wife and mother of my gorgeous daughter.  I like that fact. It wasn’t a conscious decision but it’s the way things happened.

So no Joe you’re perfectly normal, I think most people want what you want. Perhaps they don’t want it now, but I think in the end it’s what we all want. Sex is great and all, but it’s one part of a relationship and I know people have different views on it, but it’s not the most important part by a long shot to me. It’s the icing on the cake.

Stick to your standards Joe, it’s what makes you who you are.

Good looking, talented, funny and a decent gentleman, the guy that gets you will be one lucky SOB :)

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September Update

So, that was the summer holidays then. I actually really enjoyed them. I know in previous years I’ve got bored, but not really this time. We didn’t go out much, Me and Kat went to London for 2 nights. Saw Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, which inspired me to get a move on with the books. I managed to read books 2-7, averaging out to one book a week. Read the 7th in about 3 days and it was brilliant. We took a trip to Skegness, the first time we have all been together. Hannah liked the beach!

Hannah  is continuing to develop well. She has two bottom teeth and a third on the way. She can’t walk, but she can walk if she’s holding onto something, so for all intents and purposes she can get anywhere she wants now. This past week she’s started to form new sounds, ‘ma’ and ‘na’ have crept in and it looks like she’s starting to use her tounge to go for a ‘th’ sound too. She’s slipped a bit with sleeping in that she tends to wake up once a night on average for a feed, but she’s very good and it only takes a few minutes of feeding and she goes back to her cot without a fuss. Actually getting to sleep is much better now. She cries for only about a minute most days once we put her in and she’s away, some days she doesn’t cry at all. This means 99% of the time we know we have Hannah-free time from 7pm onwards.

Games wise I’ve pretty much just been playing WoW. Despite my previous post, Kat didn’t get round to trying WoW. A shame, but never mind. Rob has got back into it and we’re enjoying playing together. My Druid is much more effective when all the damage is going to his Paladin.  We’re both poor this month so I have just cancelled my pre-order for Batman: Arkham Asylum. I played the demo and it was brilliant. I’ll still be getting it, but will have to wait for pay day.

Comics wise I’ve just been reading the usual. I’ve got the 8th Preacher installment to read. My comics subscriptions have pretty much run out and I’m not too keep on renewing. The cost is the main issue. I get paid less than when I first subscribed and due to the exchange rate it’s not as much of a bargain. Added to that is the fact that trades are cheaper in the long run. It’s difficult. Overall quality of the comics is actually just average. I haven’t really enjoyed Captain America in a while. I like Bucky Barnes, but the constant need to have him relive his WW2 days is a bit of a bore fest. It looks like they’re bringing back Steve Rogers which although I am excited about, it is a massive copout for him to be alive. All the claims of him being properly dead, it’s stupid. I don’t believe the whole ‘we planned it all along!’ crap either. They shoe-horned the ‘forshadowing’ in. Astonishing X-Men has been a big dissapointment since Warren Ellis took the reins. I loved the Whedon run, but the writing and the art work for the series now is utterly, utterly terrible. New Avengers has been it’s usual self, just constantly average. I love the idea of the Avengers more than the actual series I suppose. Dark Avengers has been ok but still, the problem I think is having Brian Michael Bendis seemingly write all of the major Marvel titles and he’s spreading himself to thin. He can be good but he’s just spreading himself too thin right now.  I’m tempted to catch up on Iron Man, I got the first trade of the new series recently and the second is out in hardback. I’ll see how much it’d cost to get the individual issues on eBay and then perhaps subscribe from Page45 in Nottingham. Funds are tight lately though so maybe not.

This month we also did a cooking challenge, spawned from my ponderings for many months about how much we spend and waste on food. So we adapted the idea (initially it was just about cost) so we each bought food and cooked for everyone for a week. Points went for lowest cost, least waste, best quality, healthiness and best 3 course meal. Overall I won, but only just. Although it was tiring towards the end to be doing all the cooking, I did enjoy it because it forced me to try new dishes. My asian chicken noodle broth, crunchy garlic chicken and chocolate brownie cake all went down very well. All thanks to Jamie Oliver’s book ‘Ministry of Food’. If you can’t cook, get this book. It’s all very simple stuff.

I won’t talk about work here for obvious reasons, let’s just say certain things are worse than they were before the holidays.

Oh well. Overall life is still good. Can’t believe Hannah is 1 in just 3 months! I’ve got my next OU course starting in a couple of weeks. Workload this year should be slightly less as I’m doing a 20 point course first then starting a 30 point in Feb. But the work should be harder so I don’t know what’s worse. I shall try to keep on top of it though. I had brilliant assignment scores in my last 2 courses ruined by average exam marks. I think the system is very unfair given the subject matter (there is NO programming done in the test, you write code on paper…yeah, that’s a really good reflection of how things work practically in the real world!)

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WoW!

I have just convinced my wife to try World of Warcraft! Even though I’m fairly sure she won’t enjoy it all that much, the prospect that she might is very exciting!

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GeekParents no more

Ok so my GeekParents idea has died. Mostly my fault in that my excitement and effort lasted a whopping week. You can’t magic up a community, it takes time and effort, the latter of which I just don’t have. I’m really enjoying relaxing this summer, reading the Harry Potter books and loving them, enjoying time with Hannah and playing plenty of TF2 and WoW. The amount of work I have to do over the next 5 years to get qualified to teach is considerable so I want to spend my free time enjoying it as much as possible! I do feel a mix of guilt and embarrassment and it is tempting to delete it all but I’ll leave it there, I may yet change my mind or other people may be interested.

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Spring clean

Made a bunch of posts private. There were a fair few posts that could end my career one day. Which wouldn’t be good!

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Last anonymous place?

As far as I am aware, nobody I know ‘in real life’ reads this. They quite easily could. My Facebook page links to my Twitter page, my Twitter profile links here. I have links on various forums to here and only one of those has one person I know ‘in real life’ as a member.

Not that I mind if they do read this. But this is a semi-secret place. A place to say slightly crazier stuff without worrying too much.

So my crazy thing to say now is “If it was possible to have sex with music, my headphones would be getting lucky right now.”. One of the things I miss most about my pre-(happily!)-married days is the amount of time I spent listening to music. I’ve always loved music but never started buying it until I was about 16. In my student days I would spend most waking hours with some kind of music playing, be it on the radio when I woke up, my PC or my walkman/mp3 player/iPod. I would always be up to date with what was new. Then a lot of waking hours get taken up with work and family, so you have to be a little pickier with how you spend your ‘Me’ time, and more often than not I choose to play games in that time.

Today is one of those days where I remember how much I love just plugging in some headphones, tuning out the world and enjoying some great new music. There’s been an advert on Living the past couple of weeks and I liked the sound of the song. So I Googled it and saw it was La Roux, “In for the kill”. So I listen to it on YouTube and love it. Then I remember seeing their other song “Bulletproof” at number 2 in the iTunes chart so I listen to that and love it even more. So I got the album today and am currently half way through it and think it’s bloody fucking brilliant.

Another artists I decided to look into was Little Boots. I managed to develop a mini-crush within the hour, her YouTube videos of cover versions are brilliant, she’s obviously very talented and I like the new direct-to-audience style actors, artists and general famous people are using. The ease of user created content and communication the likes of Twitter, YouTube and Flickr give us means they can cut out the PR crap, which I like. Makes them seem more genuine.

iTunes is being very slow downloading that album so haven’t listened to it yet, but will do before bed.

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So very bored.

Bored to tears. In one of those moods where I want to do something, but not sure what. Ideas include making some kind of game for PC/Mac/iPhone and get into that as a hobby with the aim of maybe eventually selling them (way, way into the future). It would require a lot of learning and may be at odds to my OU work.
The other thing is to take up writing of some kind. I love to type, I love crafting emails, forum posts, blog posts. I enjoy taking the time to make sure it is worded as well as possible, and where possible to be entertaining or amusing. I know this is not in the same league but I may be interested in maybe doing a few short stories or something and if I enjoy it or are any good at it perhaps moving onto book length stories.

Basically I’m looking to do something that I can do easily when I get a spare few minutes at home or work, and something that could lead to a secondary income or at least a hobby.

The other thing I was about to try was audio blogging, but then people came into the room. I’ll try it out later.

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Privacy

I read a couple of articles on the BBC website’s Education News that rather annoyed me, all linked to what teachers can and can’t do.

The first that annoyed me is this culture of non-contact with students. Anytime I touch a student I get shouted at “You can’t touch me!”, to which I reply that yes I can. I took a course and have a certificate to say that I am trained to use reasonable force on students, a right all members of staff have. That is one situation where contact is necessary. Also, to me, general day to day stuff. I’ll put my hand on a shoulder or elbow to move people along or out of my way. I’ll tap them to get their attention, again nothing that could ever cause harm and often it’s done in a joking way. The tough situation is one of comforting an upset child. Now yes I would never hug a student, and I think at secondary school age certainly this must not be done. I just hated that what this article quoted from a Headteacher that if a female member of staff comforted an upset student she would be seen as a motherly type, where as if a man does it it is seen as wrong. He might be a child predator! Grr.

Anyway that was nothing compared to reading that in Scotland, teachers are not allowed to have their own blogs! How ridiculous. Yes those in positions of care should not be discussing the lives of our charges. But anytime I talk about work I always make sure I never mention names or where I work. Yes anyone that already knows information about me such as my full name, the names of my wife, daughter and dog would be able to work out who I am. The only thing that ties this blog to me really is the WHOIS information, which I find infuriating and would like to at some point look into a way of changing that information. I think there are services out there that will let you do this but I think that takes control over your website away from you to an extent. I could of course move this to somewhere like Blogspot or Wordpress’s own hosting and then I would be more protected.

Anyway it all boils down to this idea that teachers should be this beacon of perfection. Not only are they expected to educate students but they are social workers and surrogate parents. To sweeten the deal now we are having aspects of our non-working lives subject to new rules. I’m sure it won’t be long before this rule applies to the whole UK. They can stuff themselves, of course. I will blog till I die. The whole thing just isn’t enforceable. If they gave me a warning, I could within 10 minutes set up this place on Wordpress, change the name that I use and if I wanted to be very paranoid, make sure all posts are published with a time delay. There will be no team of expert internet detectives trying to catch me out.

I hate that it leaves me yet again thinking if I should make more of an effort to be anonymous. I won’t for now, as of course this ‘rule’ is only in Scotland. I will still use common sense and not name names or give any other information that could lead people to discover who I’m talking about.

Moan over. I have a relatively easy day ahead of me so I can’t complain too much.

Just a quick question, does anyone read this? I doubt it, but I think I link to it on a couple of forums so it is possible.

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Meet Patrick

Ok I just have to note down this little tale because it is the most bizarre/disturbing/funny experience I’ve ever had.

So I’m in Nottingham for a day school, exam prep for one of my courses. Afterwards I catch a movie (Star Trek again) and dinner with Rob, then we go to a pub. Sat upstairs and outside we are talking when some guy pops his pint onto our table. “Great.” I think, “One of those drunks who wants to talk to strangers all night.”. So he asks something. I had to ask him to repeat it about 6 times and I still can’t remember what he asked. I realised he was not going away and thought what the hell, I’ll introduce myself and see where this is going. His name is Patrick, and over the course of an hour we learn that he is a thief, someone knifed his eye and the reason they did so was because he stole from them. Patrick told us the reason he was out tonight was to take revenge on this guy. He wanted to murder him. Throughout our hour with him I went from thinking he was just a drunk talking BS to thinking “Oh shit, this guy is telling the truth and is an absolute psycho!” At one point he pulled out two little bottles and I thought they were drugs. They were actually eye drops and he asked Rob to put them in for him! It was so hilarious and surreal to see my best friend attempting to put eye drops into a psychopath.

The last half of our hour was spent trying to convince Patrick that killing someone in revenge was not really the best course of action. Again simultaneously hilarious and frightening. There were times where I thought he might flip out and just hit us. Then the bit where I got most scared went something like this:

“Well even if you do kill him, his mates might take revenge.”

“Yeah well I’d just kill them too.”

“How?”

At which point he starts to get something out of his pocket. For a couple of seconds I was shitting myself thinking it was a knife or gun. But no it was…a ball point pen. He informed us he was in the army for about 10 years and could kill me with a pen. I said I believed he could, but not 10 people all at once. He claimed he could.

Luckily we had nice people keeping an eye on us. The ladies on the table behind us asked if we knew him and that they’d keep an eye out for us, and our eventual saviour, a barman. Said barman came over and discreetly asked if we knew him and if he was ok. I said we didn’t and he wasn’t too bad, but the barman asked him if he was ok and asked him to drink up and leave given his current state. After a few minutes he returned and offered to give a refund on his pint if he left immediately. This is when Patrick decided to flip out. He got very aggressive to the barman, who then insisted he left. I was surprised he didn’t get violent the way he was mouthing off. At least in his anger he had left us, causing a scene.

Anyway after that we joked with the nice ladies behind us that we deserved a drink after putting up with all that! We stayed for another drink just to be sure he wasn’t waiting for us, which luckily he wasn’t.

So the lesson is, if some drunken stranger starts a conversation with you, make a swift exit! Given the state of his eye the injury must have been at least a couple of months ago, and as I said to Patrick I don’t think he will do anything because otherwise he wouldn’t be telling us about it. To be serious for a while he probably has had a bad life and is obviously not having a good time at the moment. But any positive advice we tried to get was just met with the “It’s all right for you, you’ve had a privileged life” etc replies. He also kept saying he’d “Rather live the last 10 minutes of my life as a Lion than the rest of it as a mouse”, and waffled a lot about him wanting to be brave and take revenge, not be a coward and do nothing.

So to Patrick I tell you this: “Get a grip”. Don’t like being knifed in the eye? Then don’t fucking spend you life stealing from other people. At one point he asked me if I thought he deserved to have it happen to him. I deflected the question as to not get him angry, but I essentially said yes. I have many beliefs, the primary one being what goes around comes around.

So yes, an eventful night and one I won’t remember.

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My ears are bleeding

I do love how teenagers feel the need to talk about their sex lives during lessons. They could at least have the decency to keep it quiet. They may think that they are oh so grown up talking about it, where as everyone else is thinking “What a slag/twat/liar” (delete as appropriate).

Just 24 minutes until they leave and I can pour acid into my ear canals so I won’t have to listen to them tomorrow.

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